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Yesterday I went to trilogy a nice place here in Dubai basically a night club, place was awesome music great people lovely liquor well it was all great but then there was something amiss with me….well I believe going out to such a place with guys only leaves such a feeling deep in your heart where you take comfort in the thought that you are here just for the drinks and music and nothing else and that you are enjoying this boys night out , well I guess we can never be like the fairer sex, they seem to have a blast when there is ladies night , which brings me to the thought why don’t guys enjoy the company of another guy to the extend to which girls tend to enjoy the company of same sex , why do guys feel awkward (at least in heart ) when going out with other guys, I don’t know but I tend to feel quite sad about my state when I am out with my friends (guy friends) , it makes me feel that how unwanted I am with, I just don’t find guys interesting enough despite the fact that I would find girls interesting who are interested in this guy, don’t know what the hell do these girls see in him.

Such night outs make me feel like a total loser (not saying that I am not one) but then the feeling is real strong in such situation, the DJ was belting out song after song which were forcing into jiggling my heavy body (in the end I managed to do that) but then my mind was constantly checking out people around me basically girls around me…the thoughts crossing my mind were “what the hell is she looking at me? Am I looking that funny? Why the hell is she not looking at me?” basically I was one hairball of contradicting dick with absolutely no idea what the hell I was doing at that place and to top of it I wasn’t drunk enough.

Thou I did enjoyed my night I still think that most of the men out there would agree with me here

Relations

Relations- what a word, a word with which holds the most complex meaning, its not just a word but a net of complex web of outcomes which not only screws mind but body soul and the very existence of being human

No one can understand what gone wrong or what might go wrong all one know is that he or she wants to be in a relation a relation which might not only leave you depress you but also kill, now you must be wondering that here is one more blog which is just another crap by another heartbroken guy who got ditched by his girl and wants to make a mockery of the term relations and fun of people in relations….well then u guys are correct I too want to do that and there is nothing new in this blog, the only thing that you might find interesting in this whole thing is my observation which I believe is true in case a guy gets ditched (yes I have been ditched) I do not know but despite 3 years and 4 relations or is it 5 well hardly matters but then I still cant forget the first time I was ditched

I felt a feeling of void deep in the heart the void still lingers it continues , its like a integral part of me and at some point of time when I do not feel it for long I feel like that there is something missing , some thing is incomplete in my life, and that’s the moment when I find comfort in the songs of Nickelback specially “figure u out” coz I just feel it reflects me…angry sad but yet miss her enough to write songs about her she is still like “grass” , you smoked it in college, now you hate it because u might be more responsible but then would not miss a chance to remember “those days” and would spend any amount to money to “relive those days”.

So what makes me an expert in making comments on relations well it does not makes me an expert it just makes me a “loser” well I am just suffering from symptom of “how-could-ditch-me-for-something-like-that” disease where u feel like no one knows you and no one really care about you….that’s a different fact that you act like an asshole hence people avoid you they just feel that you are preoccupied with your lost love, well they are right and you are wrong about that

You this always happen…you feel like writing so much but then when you actually sit down to write is you are actually out of words your mind drifts to some place else…in the words of Keane “somewhere we belong” and this is what exactly is happening with me now…feel so much inside me but yet cant express it…not because I do not have words for it but don’t know what to write and why to write just to let other people know that what an idiot I am . So I think I would rather stick to regular stuff like about me about things like about my day about what went wrong with me in my life